My Anxiety Journey

How did I first ever suffer from anxiety?

My introduction to panic and anxiety happened when I was younger and started taking soft drugs. I thought I knew better and believed they would do me no long term harm. How wrong I was!

I had just started a new job when I first felt an attack of panic. My whole body went funny and I could not think straight. I just felt a strong urge to get out of the room. I had no idea what was wrong with me. I ended up making excuses to leave my workplace that day and go home. I then spent the rest of the day pondering about what had just happened.

I said to myself, "Well, OK, I don't know what happened there, but hopefully it was a one off." No such luck, I went on for a few weeks like this, spending so much time worrying about what was happening to me and why I felt the way I did. In time I then went on to develop constant anxiety. I now realise this came from all the worrying about my original feelings of panic. All this worry led to so much extra stress and I was left with constant anxiety to go alongside my feelings of panic.Around this time, I had a breakdown. I just could not understand or take in what was wrong with me. This is when depression and feelings of not being with it occurred. My mind seemed to race and my thoughts seemed to become distorted. I felt like I was somewhere else and began feeling as though I was in dream world. I felt I was losing my whole personality and sometimes my mind. It was at this point that I first went to see my doctor.

If you read my book, it will tell you where I went from there, and after you have read my home page, you will know that I did go on to fully recover. Even through all those dark days when I felt that I just did not want to be here anymore, something inside me told me that I would find a cure and I would get better. No matter what it took, I believed there must be an answer out there. I was never going to become another statistic, I wanted my life back and I was going to find out everything I could about this condition to make this come true.

Where am I now?

I am now fully recovered and a lot stronger person for it. Little trivial things do not bother me any more. It has made me realise what is important. Life is a gift and we should enjoy it. I am also more confident than I was before. When you have been through what I have, you become a much stronger person.

I no longer worry about anything. If there is one thing that anxiety teaches you more than anything else, it is that worrying is the most destructive emotion there is. My life is so much different now and I try to live it to the full. I wasted so many years and now I feel it's time to catch up.

I also left my mundane job so that I could dedicate all my time to helping other sufferers around the world. This gives me a great deal of satisfaction and can be very rewarding. The first thought that came into my head when I had recovered was that I could go on to help others. I knew how long it took me to find the answers that I so craved. Could I just carry on with my life and ignore other people's suffering? The answer was a definite no. I have helped and advised more people than I can remember and it is so rewarding.

Although the site has grown far bigger than I ever thought possible, the people who know me know I do as much as I can to help others. I post on my personal blog as often as I can and raise money and awareness for trusted anxiety non profit sites.

I also write many articles on the subject for websites and I am always given an option as to which category I wish to put my work in, but anxiety or panic is never there. Every other medical condition appears, so why not this subject?. Until we can bring more awareness to the subject, I feel we will still get forums and doctors surgeries full of people crying out for help and so much needless suffering through lack of information will continue.

Hopes for the future.

If setting up this website and writing the book helps people recover and live a better life, then it will all be worth it. My aim is to hopefully step in and teach people more about anxiety and the way to recover, before they spend years going round in circles like I did unable to find answers to their condition. My anxiety condition became worse over the years through receiving bad advice from so called specialists who knew very little or nothing about the subject. I also spent more money than I care to remember on so called cures, going from one let down to another. Is it any wonder many feel so hopeless and alone?

Something that really bothers me is these people who offer miracle cures, they charge the earth and have no information on their site. They just set up a big sales page and prey on peoples desperation for a quick fix. I also fell into the trap of parting with my money to these people, who offer nothing but false hope. The first thing people tell me after reading the book is that they fear their symptoms far less, they don't seem as important. This is because they have for once been given an for explanation to how they feel, so their symptoms do not scare them as much, which in turn helps stops the constant worry cycle and fear and worry are all the fuel anxiety needs.

I hope one day this information will be available when people first seek help, instead of people feeling like they are being ignored or pushed from one person to another. I have lost count of the number of emails from people asking why this information is not available when we first seek help? Why are we just given pills and told to go on our way? This I don't have the answer to, although in defence of the medical world, anxiety really is a subject within itself and they are just not equipped in most cases to help.

Please tour the site

Now you have landed on my site do take the time to look around it. The site was set up to help people, to give them new hope and a better understanding of their condition. If you are a first time visitor to the site please keep popping in, as I will keep updating it when I feel it necessary.

Thank you for your interest in me as well as in my site.

Paul David

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